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21 / 5 / 2013 @ 00:02

Also I just wanted to say the things that Jesse did that made me wanna go out with him in the first place/see him again after the first date.

- he asked for my number, because it was easier to communicate, but said if I wasn’t comfortable that was fine (I gave it to him)

- he asked me to go out with him within a few days of us starting to talk (I hate guys who never wanted to meet up, also if we talked online too much there would be nothing to talk about in person: first date is lore awkward cause there aren’t te normal questions to ask)

- he offered to drive to my city and meet me anywhere I wanted to (we lived forty minutes - an hour a part and I was uncomfortable going to a city I didn’t know well to meet a boy I didn’t know at all)

- we went for dinner and he didn’t drink alcohol (I hate guys who drink on the first date)

- the date was without pressure. We had decided before meeting up that we would go for dinner (and as Jesse said “if you don’t completely hate me, maybe we could play mini golf after)

- when we decided to go play mini golf, he let me drive us (I wasn’t comfortable getting in a car with a guy I didn’t know)

- he let me pay for my own dinner (I don’t like guys paying for me on a first date. It makes me feel like I owe them something)

- but he paid for mini golf after arguing with me which I thought was sweet.

- when we were done mini golf, I drove him back to his car and he told me he thought I was really awesome and he wanted to see me again, then left without trying to hug or kiss me

- he texted me as soon as he got home, and we set up our next date for the Tuesday to see a movie (didn’t try to play hard to get)

From day 1 he made me feel important and he never left me guessing with how he was feeling which a lot of guys do. He treated me as an equal and respected me, and made a true effort to see me whenever possible (he worked long hours and lived almost an hour a day but would still make time to see me at least once during the week- even meeting me to see a movie at 8pm when he’d just worked 6am- 7pm and had to get up at 5:30am the next morning) and spent every weekend with me from our first date on.

Online dating can be a success but as far as I’ve heard, success like mine is pretty rare.

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20 / 5 / 2013 @ 23:39

I follow a lot of people still that I started following when I was just starting to use plenty of fish (so say, a year and a half ago?) and all of them are talking about the rule changes.

I really think they’re good changes, and it will help people use the site better (for now anyway). I remember all the stupid hookup messages I got even though I made it very clear I wasn’t into that.

I didn’t really date guys off it (I think Met up with one guy, maybe two before Jesse) but I did meet Jesse on there which was the best thing that ever happened to me, so I will forever have a soft spot for that website.

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19 / 5 / 2013 @ 04:25

I just wanna go home and bawl my eyes out. I feel like as soon as I di that ill be fine.

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19 / 5 / 2013 @ 04:01

I haven’t really been eating well. The last two days I only ate one thing a day. Today I drank so much in forty minutes with only eating a mcflurry yesterday and a rice bowl today, and I ended up puking everywhere. My anxiety is through the roof and the only way I could control it today was drinking. But then I puked for like forty minutes and cried and missed my boyfriends entire set. And I feel like a shitty ass girlfriend. I was crying behind a building and Neha braced her way thru th puke to cone comfort me abs She’s stayed with me all night. Violet cane with me every time I puked too. But now in laying in the truck and waiting to go home and trying not to feel bad but I am. I don’t wanna be back where I was but I just always feel not ducking good enough.